Clean up

This is my stupid Blackberry. It's been messing up ever since I got to College. Yesterday it didn't give me my messages until 5:30 pm. I'm really thinking about getting an Iphone even though I don't care for all touch screen.

Package from mommy :)

This picture came out dark because of my dumb camera

Yes, I know my desk is a mess. Its clutter and messy. That's why today I'm going to take time to clean everything up. I hate when my desk get like this but sometimes it just happens unconsciously. I really need to be more organize too. I'm working on that.

The book/magazine above is just somethings I'm ready right now. I already read the GQ book. I'm really close to finishing the Russell Simmons book, I made a promise to myself to finish it before the month is over. So since today is the 31st I'm going to try and finish that up today. Then soon make my way over to the XXL magazine. It's a shame, I probably had that magazine for about a month now and still haven't looked at it.

Well I'm about to take a shower and watch my hair. Then going to eat then clean up this desk. I'll snap a shot of its cleanliness when I'm finished and post it.

New Goals

My birthday is in a week, next Thursday, November 4th. So I was just thinking I should set some new goals to reach and change some things. I wrote down several things to work on or do but probably this weekend I will really look at it and make a more organize and in depth list. I just think its time to progress and move forward, there's a lot of things I wan to improve on and start doing. Even though I'm not excited about getting older, I'm surely happy to get some gifts, who wouldn't? I'm turning 18. It's not that old but I like 16 better. If you didn't catch me telling my thoughts about that on twitter, check it out. Also I'm currently listening to Cyphi Da Prince new mixtape. He's an artist on Kanye West label G.O.O.D music. So far its not bad, better than I actually thought. If you haven't already go take a listen.

Music Monday

Once I heard this song, I immediately fell in love with it. Everything about it is on point. It makes me want to dance on top of a car in the rain with not a care in the world.

Tumblr

I have a new url to tumblr. It's www.hiilife.tumblr.com. View it here

My Generation

I saw an advertising for this show a while ago and it looked interesting. Once I saw the date that it came on, I reminded myself to make sure I watched it. Even though that was in September, I didn't watch it until today, and I found it actually to be pretty good and interesting. After watching the first two episodes I noticed that was all there was. After reading the reviews at the bottom I saw that it had gotten canceled by ABC. They said it wasn't enough viewers on the night of the premiere, which I heard it was recorded to be 3.2 million. So I don't if that's not a lot in the television department but I honestly don't understand why just after two episodes they would let this show go. Sure it started off kind of slow, but as it picked up the show became more interesting. I'm not going to go off and say that it's one of the best shows out there, but it was different show, a pretty great show at that. The creator tried something different, and made a show about what actually happens in real life. It starts off as a camera crew captures the senior year of ten teenagers then ten years later shows up to check up on them and see how they are. Of course a great deal has change because that's what actually happens in life. Even though I only been out of high school for not even a year, I can surely tell that a lot changes from high school to what you think will happen to what actually will happen. From people to friendships and relationships a great deal can change. I believe the writers were trying to capture that idea of what really happens in life, the things people are challenged with or how they grow over the years. This show had a lot of potential and I'm actually kind of mad they cancelled it. Though I saw the creator Noah Hawley's twitter and he talked about how he's trying to find a new home ( network) for the show and I was glad. He also stated that ABC is letting them put out the rest of the season which is eight episodes. I barely watch new shows these days besides a few ( like Modern Family, which I encourage all of you to watch. That show is love) but even though I might be 'young' in some people mind television is not like it use to be. Networks care more about money than they do about the quality they put out. As long as the money is coming in I guess it doesn't matter if they put out dirt. I may not know for sure what happened between this show and ABC nor may I know why it was cancelled but I think it was a bad decision. This show may not have drunk Italians fist pumping throughout the show or crazy housewives broadcasting every inch of their drama filled lives but it does show about real life and what dramatic changes and surprises happens in people lives. How they picture their self one way and ended up another, it has some kind of realness, which I like. I recommend you'll to just go on hulu.com and watch the first two episodes to see for yourself and come up with your own opinion. Feel free to share your thoughts with me too, if you like it or not. I just believe it's different then a lot of shows out here now and brings something unique to television. Besides some of the cliches, it still delivers a good point.

If you decide that you enjoyed the show, you can sign a petition to try to get it back on air here if you would like to see it continued.

Focused

I'm back at school from fall break unfortunately. It went too fast. But while I was at home I enjoyed myself and I also talked to my parents and someone about me leaving school. I think this was a good thing for me to do. Even though I went on a rant on how I wanted to leave after this semester, I think I'm going to finish out the year. While thinking about it and talking to someone that was very helpful, it would be better just to go through my first year before I make my decision. I'm just going to focus more on my work and my career, but I don't want to regret leaving school too early or not giving it a chance. I'm still going to be looking for a job or intern while at school in preparation for the summer. I'm going to write out a plan. Until then I'm to continue with school and get more knowledge and experience. I'm just going to take things one day at a time.
I was going to post a picture of a new item I got but this dumb think won't let me so I'll try to get it tomorrow.

Decisions

It's been a while I wrote something. I've been busy with school and just thinking about life. I'm finally home for fall break and very excited. I only been home for a couple of hours and I love it. Well, I talked to my parents about my pending decision about leaving college. They actually were pretty cool about but just wanted to know my reason, and do I have a plan. In my head, I have everything planned out and how I want to get started my career. Sometimes it's a little difficult trying to explain it though. With my mom it was pretty easy, she just gave me options and told to me to consider to finish out the year. On the other hand my dad is a little bit more difficult when it comes to things. Although he understands what I'm saying and how I feel, he still tries to let me know it's going to be difficult to get started with a job without a being in college or having a degree. He likes for me to look at the 'bigger picture' as he says. I understand what he trying to do and I appreciate it. We had a good talk about the pros and cons about not continuing college. He wants me to still continue to think about my decision and making sure I'm making the right one. Even though the last post I was kind of on a rant and was ready to leave then, I still want to keep thinking on this to so I'll make the right decision. I don't want to regret my choice. While I feel like right now my heart is telling me to stop and follow my dreams, I still want to make sure it's going to benefit me. Another thing is I want to start doing things a lot different. I only want to do things if my heart is in it. With the work I do, to the littlest task I take on. I'm going to start show casing how I dress more, I think my style is very versatile and I love that. I would like to give little tips and guides for women out there life and style. Since being in college I just learn so much about myself and also have a different perspective on life. I would like to share it with the world. I've grown so much, its like a new better me is coming to light. I want to become the best I can. I'm going to try and update everyday or every other, I want to be dedicated to all my crafts. No half stepping any more, it's time to grow out of that and push my self. Also I want to read more. Being more ambitious is what I'm going after. My passion is numerous things, Videography, fashion merchandise, business, music, and whatever else becomes into my interest. I know it sounds like a lot of things, but I'm going to focus on one at a time and grow from that. When something is your passion you dedicate your life to that and get so absorbed in it that you have so much knowledge about it. That's how I'm trying to be. I know it will take a while but dedicated and willing.