Miss On & On Badu

So since today is Monday, and I haven't done a Music Monday in a while, I decided to do one. Today I'm its on one specific artist. Erykah Badu, one of my favorite female artist. I love everything about her, her voice, her style, it's all unique but its amazing. I absolutely love her songs. I'm going to post some of my particular favorites.

I LOVE this song. Both of their voices together on this track is just..... I can't even explain it. It blends together so well. Also with the guitar playing in the background its just ridiculous. Its so soothing and peaceful to listen to. When you listen to it, its like you get so into the words and the music you get lost. I love this song and it will forever be one of my favorites.

Of course I couldn't cover Ms. Badu without putting this song. I'm sure numerous of people I have heard this, or someone singing this. Its so cleaver, and real you can just tell by the response by the audience. This song always makes me chuckle a little, but I do like it, her voice is just so raspy and pure.

Last but not least, another song I fell in love with. I don't even remember how I got hooked on this song, I just remember always having it on repeat. I mean how can you not love this song, the lyrics and the soulful voice gracing the track. 

Relieved

Lately, or maybe even for a while I've been having a problem with always worrying. I always think, "what if this?' 'whats going happen if or when I..?' Just always stressing sometimes about the future. What will I do, or how will I do what I want to do in life better yet if I'll still be alive. I constantly think on that. After a while it takes a toll on you, it makes you feel tired and honestly it gives me a headache sometimes. Now, I don't do it 24/7 or when I'm out, but when I'm just alone or just have time to think, it happens. It also doesn't help that most of the time I don't express my thoughts to anyone. I mean for me I never been the emotional girl, or the type to express all my feelings or problems. Usually, I just keep in all in which I think its hurting me now. Sometimes I write down my thoughts or even poems expressing how I'm feeling. When I do that I feel A LOT better. My head is clear, my heart doesn't feel heavy anymore, I just feel 100% better. So now I want to promise myself to do that more frequently, its good to do. I think its great to have a book or a place to write about your feelings at the moment, so when you overcome that particular thing or surpass what you was hoping for, you can always look  back on that to see how much you have grew. But back to my main problem, worrying and stressing over stuff. I always tell myself to let go and just worry about what's important and happening now. Not about the future because God handles that. When I do finally listen to myself and do that I just feel relieved and free. I shouldn't worry about tomorrow or what's going to happen to me, family or etc. I just need to keep my faith in God to know that he's in control and just live my life care free. Still cautious of what I do, and what's around me but not to the point the I'm worrying myself to death. Today I just realized how big of an issue this has become. I came across a girls tumblr that I just related to me so much, and how she had some of the same problems I had too. Plus the fact that she was writing and expressing her feelings, that made me feel some type of way. For me, as I said I don't really go and talk about my feelings like I'm doing now. But I just realize theres no problem telling how your feelings, whether you're happy, sad or mad, etc. We are all humans, we all have feelings and theres no problem with sharing them and not to be worried about what others think about or have to say about it. People out there probably feel the same way you do and when they read what you're saying, it may help them in some type of way that you would never know could, by just them knowing that someone out there feels the same way they do. Right now, I just have some type of peace that I haven't had in a while and I love it. Hopefully I can continue with it. Worrying about everything does nothing for me, but hurts me. Now that I know that, I'm ready to stop and just LIVE, I made this blog for several reasons, and now I feel like its really genuine because I'm starting to just open myself up, if I may say that. I want this to be a very genuine and real blog just about me, things that interest me and my life. I will start being better at that one step at a time. I'm not holding anything back anymore.

PS: I know I was kind of rambling and it was all over the place I just had to get a lot off my chest.

Tumblin' Tuesday

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Today was a pretty good day, I went to my advisor today and talked to him about my classes next semester. It seems like this semester will be way better than this one. Its not that I hate all of my classes, its just some are unnecessary and its too late for me to drop them. Next semester I get to take more classes of what I like instead of the one communication class I have now. I get to start one of my fashion merchandise class that I'm stoked about. Hopefully this turns out great. Enough about school though, I know I still haven't posted any pictures in a while but I will. I need to do bette with this blog. Christmas is when I supposedly get my camera. ( I hope). I decided to go with a Nikon, its the D5000. I heard its best for videography which is my main purpose of buying it. The camera is great to, I played with it early August at a camera store when I was on vacation. If my parents get me that then I will be forever grateful. As for right now though its just me and BB camera and a canon one that I took from my braja. That should be good for now. But the books are calling, I have a test tomorrow so I'm going to ATTEMPT to study!

Late Start

So today has been interesting to say the least. This morning I woke up late for my 8:50 class. I had to rush and do everything in a matter of 15 minutes, which is hard for me. But thank goodness I was only a couple of minutes late to class. All day I have been sore due to working out on Monday, and Tuesday. It's been a minute since I have, and my body is paying for that. Other then that I've been enjoying college  so far. I like the atmosphere and everything, but the work is ok. I love to learn, but not about what some of my classes are teaching me. I feel like I can teach myself on most of the stuff by just going to the library. It's still difficult to tell if I want to stay. Because I do actually really like college, but I just feel like I'm wasting my time. I know I can get a lot more accomplished if I just taught myself. I know what I want to do with my life and I just think it might be a bit more easier to teach myself and go out and make it happen, rather then spend 4 years a college. I just think with my career and doesn't require a college degree, especially if you're not fit out for college. I'm not going to jump into conclusion just yet, but we'll see. I have met some cool people here so far. Hopefully after this first year I'll have some idea what to do. Enough of that though, I will be posting some pictures probably tomorrow or Friday. I keep forgetting I have my camera. I have some pictures on my phone though. I need to stop neglecting this, and I need to find someone to design my blog. Trust, I know it looks mad ugly but I'll get it fix soon.