Real Moment

As summer is in full effect, and I've been out of school for a good three weeks a lot of stuff have been on my mind. I call this a real moment because I have to express how I'm feeling at this point with my life with all jokes aside. (Side note; I'm usually not the kind of girl that always express her emotions/feelings all the time and randomly but right now I'm a little bored and sometimes its nice too, and make me feel better.) I guess as of right now I thought I would have a part-time job already and working. I do have one job but I don't start till the 21st. Its not the job I was hoping for but I need the money, hopefully I can still find a full time job that in my career field before the other one starts. I just been feeling like time is passing me when I can be working but the jobs I've applied for has not called me back, and some jobs that I really wanted I couldn't apply to cause I'm not '18'. I absolutely hate that policy. I guess I already had my thoughts and plans about how I thought this summer was going to go, and even though its early I hope it gets way better. I really want this to be an enjoyable, and memorable summer. I just have so many things I want to explore and do, that money plays a big part and without a job its impossible. Also I want to fix my blog up to my liking, even though I just started out, I just want to perfect my craft as well as I can. One more thing and I'm done. One of the biggest thought that stays on my mind is what I want to do with my life. Now I'm not going to go on this whole foolery rampage as most people do about their life and how they doing all 'this' and 'that' when most of em aren't. For me I just want to do what I love and I realize that I need to start making effort and just do it, despite what anyone has to say or feel about it and my age. No one is going to give me anything, I have to get it myself and not be afraid. And over the last week or so I've realized thats what I'm have GOING to do.

PS: this is the type of post you will rarely see from me lol. I just had to clear my head.